sMiLe jak.. =]

huhu..hanya mampu senyum la ni skrg.. =) =) =) can't do anything else pun...but syukur, ada byk kwn yg care.. I love you guys so much! Thanks God for sending these angels of Yours..! =) sorry kalo ada sms yg xtreply..hu3~ sbb sy xtau mo kata apa..but then, from d bottom of my heart i wanna say thank u sbb semua tu betul2 mberkati sy. atleast ada yg care kan..hehe..

actually..teda idea bah sy mo menaip ni..haha..saja2 jak mbuang masa yg mmg xpayah buang pun pandai lari sendiri.. haha..ntah..hilang risau sy pada exam..mgkin sbb apa yg blaku kot..but anyway, huh! sy akan keep fighting.. exam pun penting baituh...hahha..

so, korg sumer..gud luck ah..bagus2 bljr..jgn tingu muvie ja mcm sy.. LOL.. sepa pun kmu, sy akan doa utk kmu ya? sy xsebut nama pun Tuhan kenal jg kmu sepa tu..betul ni..hehe.. bah, take care everyone.. jaga diri, jaga kesihatan..! prepare well for your exam! All d best amigos..! Babai..

Confused..

Last nite sy mcm kena heart attack..

sakit jantung dgn apa yg blaku..

it was very sudden..very drastic..

but i can't do anything about it..

I seem to lose all my strength in a blink of eyes.

Syukur mc ada Tuhan..

..dan itu saja yg buat sy mc bernafas dan mc bertahan sampai saat ini..

kalo tidak, for sure sy sudah terjun dr tingkat 10 Desa Tekun ni..

Thanx Lord buat kekuatan yg Engkau berikan...

Sy pun tia taw sampai bila..

sampai bila ni akan terus terjadi..

ntah apa salah sy..

sy perlu tahu itu supaya sy tahu sy kena buat apa..

tp, skrg ni satu benda pun sy xtahu..sy xfaham..

mau melangkah pun xtau mcm mna..

Sy sama mcm seorg traveler skrg ni..

d tgn sy lengkap semua tools..

sy ada map.. sy ada compass..

tp mungkin xperlu tu semua sbb i have something even better..GPS..

hurmm..xpayah manual2 dgn map dan compass lg..

tapi..sy sesat d tgh2 tempat yg sy sndiri xkenal..

even worst, sy nak tanya org jln keluar..

but org tanya sy blk "kmu nak ke mana?"

dgn bodohnya sy jwb "sy xtau sy nak ke mana..sy sesat ni.."

"I need someone to tell me where I am now..!"

and that person will definitely go away at that instant..

nak minta tunjuk jln tp xtau nak ke mana..

some people that i ask mungkin jwb

"u go and ask sombody else ya?"

huh..how many?? till i know where i am and where i'm going??

But hey..actually i know d exact person..

sy pegi kat dia..tanya..

"sy d mana bah skrg ni?"

"sy mo tau sbb sy perlu decide sy mo pegi mna!"

another bad luck..worst of them all..

d person don't wanna talk even a single word!!

i ask..d person remain silent..

i give d person a paper n a pen to write..

d person didn't even look at those..

i use sign language that i made up myself..

lg bodoh! i look like badut buat per4mance dpn org tu..

aiihhh...so what do u want me to do to make u speak??

tell me!!! arrgghhhhh...

that GPS is useless now..

nak guna benda canggih2 mcm tu konon..

tp destinasi pun xda..

that's y sy xhenti2 nangis dr semlm..

this morning when i wake up..

mata bengkak..kpala mc pening..

sy bdiri ja..peduli lah.. sy maw p church.

dlm bathroom, siap sy mandi, sy hmpir mati dlm shower!

mungkin sbb mata n otak x brpa betul..

i slipped..pinggang sy sakit gila2..

syukur bkn kpala sy thentak kat lantai..

syukur...tp pinggang mmg sakit masa tu..

mna igt nak bsyukur lg tym tu..

Tuhan sorry..

i got up tp xdpt stand up tegak..

rasa mcm nak crawl jak balik bilik..

OMG! sakit wo..sy masuk bilik, trus baring..

nangis lg..huhuhu~ aduhh..

now i can't go to church..

sy sepatutnya serve hr ni tp...

huhu~ sorry Pr Sam..! sorry Wilma..!

i kept crying till sy xsedar pun bila sy tertidur..

Now I'm awake..

i grab my ubat..g minum ubat tu..

ok la ckit pain sy..kurg2 sudah..

ambil hp, byknya msg..

but none came from d one i expected to receive..

huhu..i open n read all..

thanx Mr Lee my bro..I love those Words..

thanx Yama my bro..I love those Words..

xtau apa yg mau d reply ni..

reply ckit2 jak..

sy perlu time utk fikirkan semua ni..

sy perlu ruang utk fikirkan semua ni..

tp..doesn't mean that i have to b alone kan?

i got so many nice friends that i can go n talk to..

tp..now mesti dorg tgh study..

Just now, someone ask me out..

should i go??

xtau lah..even simple Q like that pun

susah sy mo jwb d sbb kan kebingungan yg melampau ni..

adOoiii lahh...maybe i should go and have fun..

but can i?

maybe i should stay in my room n start revising..

but...can i??

aaahhhh....mantap persoalan2 ku..

xsuka oh..can i laugh at myself now?

"hahahahahahahah~

tu laa ko bodo sgt Bet...

tu ada Daddy yg bleh bg ko wisdom bh fikir baik2..

p doa skrg..! and 1 more..

stop crying would u?"

adehh..huhu.. next week exam dah..

I need to recover..Tuhan tulung sia!!

Breathe Bet..breathe...

Whoa!!..semalam was quite extreme for me..haha.. last nyte ada mini concert for CLC.. last min preparation but everything turned up to be good.. with my talented vocalist n musician frenz..and ofcourse with God help! I'm very2 blessed..!

Our songs..

1. Hari Ini (Hari yang telah dijadikan Tuhan)
2. Ku 'kan Terbang
3. Inilah Zaman Elia
4. Kecaplah dan Lihatlah
5. Indah pada WaktuNya
6. You're my All in All
7. Dengan SayapMu

Eii..gumbiranya sia....haha..xpayah crita byk laa.. c Emaxlnc (Max) suda crita d cni (http://emax2010design.blogspot.com/2010/10/mini-konsert.html).. segala kemuliaan bg Tuhan.. tanpa Dia, we wouldn't make it that good... haha~!! and then kan..masakan mlm tu, sedaaaaapppp sgt.. sepa masak ar?? tq so much~!! serius ni sy.. sedap.. haha..sy berabis puji sbb sy xboleh memasak sebagus itu.. awhh malu sy!! hehehe~ Do kah masak tu? hehe.. terima kasih cikgu! Len kali masak lg yeah? yeaaa....hahahah..

Byk peristiwa lucu smlm..sy kc detail ckit cerita c Max..bulih kan max?? hee~

first..urmm smlm, cl nite without staffs. agak byk jg student yg pegi..sy igt xda org la nak pegi..skali, ramai ni..sampai nda cukup mknan.. cian c Peter..nda sempat dia merasa mee goreng Do.. huhu~ xpa, len kali ah Peter? yg sy sgka hadir xda.. yg sy pikir xkan dtg, dorg plak yg awal.. nah, mcm mna itu.. Big Daddy blg, "Bet, tu la kau..len kali jgn cepat buat tafsiran sendiri2..Saya tau bah pa Saya buat..Saya ada plan Saya sendiri." trus sy blg, "ok Daddy, ok..sorry ah..hee.." hmm manja betul sama Daddy..huhu..tu bru 1st..

second..last nite's game was simple..guess game apa? game yg paling femes d CLC.. "Angin Bertiup" hahaha~ firus2 dr Fly lah tu.. kalo pikir2, teda pun yg menarik..dah selalu main.. tp ya amfuuunnn..haffenning youuuu~!! gila tlampau durg main.. mungkin sbb ada sorg tu..c YB Zebry.. ntah kenapa dia smlm ovverrr sgt gila2 dia.. aduuii tekejut sy tgk.. asyik bunyi dia ja ketawa.. kdg xlah lucu sgt tp dia ketawa ni..n org lain pun akan ikut ketawa slpas tu..hahakz.. is it something bad? ofcourse...NOT!! bagus baituh..sedar xsedar, dia sdg mberkati org2 sekeliling dia dgn phiburan melalui gelak ketawa dia..nah Zeb, bgus! truskan 'maju' yerr..hahaha.. best jg bcuz ada men denda2.. dpt tgk Zeb menari, dgr Becca nyanyi, tgk aksi Romeo (Romio or Mio) dgn Julietnya, tgk Bay luah cinta kat Silin (cover jak tuh..) nah..sepa blg xbest?? tu bru 2nd..

third..concert!! yay~ hee..actually, xbsmgt pun utk itu bh sblum hr kejadian..buktinya, ada ka buat publisiti d FB? teda kan.. tu bukti betapa inda berapa mau bh buat tu smlm.. hahaha.. dgn mslh itu ini lg.. (kalo pasal sibuk ngan projek tu sy fhm) pehh..mmg mantap lah cbrn.. mesti iblis btungkus lumus mo mgagalkan concert tu kan? syabas utk kegigihan anda iblis, tp takziah sbb kamu tdak akan pernah menang atas kmi krna Tuhan ada d pihak umat yg di kasihiNya.. amen!! haha..d concert went smooth..except for d 1st part (at d intro as max mentioned).. tp semua ok.. we even did something yg we didn't plan pun bah.. xda d practice, tp ok.. luar biasa kan pekerjaan Roh Kudus? yeah.. nah, 3rd suda...

forth..mcm besa, lepas mkn2 mesti ada yg nyanyi2.. hah, yg ni sy rasa mcm sy d srwak! syok ooh!! hahaha.. Mio n Zeb tukang nyanyi dia.. haha.. len2 men music laa.. uu~ suka sy..sy xberapa fhm jg apa lagu durg tu sbb bhsa iban..phm ckit jak.. tp best! haha..sy gumbiraa.... yahoooo! skali lg, ofcoz c Zeb la memeriahkan suasana.. terima kasih sbb mjadi badut yg cumiill ah Zeb? hahaha.. i like~!!

Okeyh..itu lah sdkit sbyk pa yg blaku d clc smlm.. another moment to cherish kan? syg xda ambil gmbar plak.. xpa2..haha

Skrg...sy amat2 ngantuk..semlman xtidur tlg Yama d studio dia.. now sy bleh breathe dah..habis siap tugas sy.. fuh..hebat plak rasanya xtidur.. haha..trus biul2 (frasa c Niza haha..) utak sy ni.. so now i wanna go to take a short nap b4 ada wayar2 dlm otak sy hangus..dan tputus dan akhirnya xbfungsi..sbb susah lg beta mau d angkut ke rumah sakit sendi lutut kalo ada yg rusak d bhgian usus beta.. HOII apa aku melalut ni..ya ampz!! ok2..sy g tido..ptg nti siap for Cell Group! can't wait.. yeah~!! Blessings for everyone! ngee...ZzZzzz...

Simple Words of Thanks..

Hahaha..y laugh?? hehe..I'm happy for yesterday.. a bit stressed sblah tghari tu but then beginning from ptg, sy dihiburkan oleh kwn2..dan sy pasti, ofcoz la itu semua berkat dr Tuhan... OMG! u wouldn't know how happy I'm smlm kalo juz baca dr cni.. but serius...sy happy gila gila gila!! hahahaha... dah lama x rasa mcm tu..hmm.. this is my 1st step of gaining back my TRUE self that I've been longing for dr dulu.. hee~!!

tp..mungkin sy akan terpaksa melukakan hati org utk pkara tu..but i don't really care.. sbb?? sbb ini utk kebaikan org tu jg..kalo sy xbtindak, makin melarat pula penyakit tu..huhuu~ keep on praying for this yeah? thanx! yg penting, I'm not doing this for me only..I'm doing this for everyone... seems like I've been ignoring d people around me for such a long2 tyme.. suddenly miss them.. haha~!! tp serius ni.. betul rindu..

so here are my simple thanx to you guys yg byk bless sy smlm...

For mr.Ady....

ko kwn ptama yg sy meet after kluar dr bilik..

bjumpa bukan rncang pun..

mula dr HOT 99% tu jak..

gila.. haha

apapun mr Ady..

..thanx sudi mjejakkan kaki ke tesco :p..

..thanx utk esklim..

..thanx blnja mkn d gerai kuning..

..thanx ikut pegi clc..

..thanx sbb luangkan masa wlupun ko penat blk keja..

Thank u so much for all d blessings!!

For Cici n Becca....

kwn2 karipap ku..

hahaha.. bengong..

lama x mgetek ngan kmurg..

bila lg maw mgetek sama2 ni..?

karaoke pree!! haha..

..thanx utk kesungguhan kmu dlm ministry..

..thanx utk masa kmu pegi mkn sma2 smlm..

..thanx sbb xprnh tglkan sy dlm apa2 pun..

..thanx 4 d moments we shared..

Thank u so much for all d blessings!!

For Max, Yama, Vera, Uly....

syg kmurg...

syg sgt2 taw..betul ni..

sy tau kmurg mesti sibuk dgn itu ini..

sorry sbb byk susahkan kmu..

sy dtg lmbt p practice..

kdg2 sy xserius..

sy cepat tension.. so..

..thanx utk masa yg kmu spend..

..thanx sbb kmu mau korban masa utk CLC..

..thanx 4 ur patience..

..thanx utk talent yg kmu ada..

..thanx 4 being there with me and for me..

Thank u so much for all d blessings!!

Juniors ku cyg..Dura n Farah..

1st..sorry if I don't treat d way I supposed to..

cuz I don't know how..

but...sy suka kmurg..

cumiiiiiiillll sgt2..suka3!

sy xsangka bgni rasa dia..

jd senior yg ada juniors baik2 mcm kmurg ni..

nda percaya?? betul ni..

..thanx sbb ada d cni..

..thanx buat hati kmu utk Tuhan..

..thanx 4 being very supportive in everything..

Thank u so much for all d blessings!!

For Kak Niza..

sis..mish u..mish u...

muahxx! huhuhu..

rindu date ngan ko..

lama ni xkluar dating..

rindu plak kat zaman muda2 dulu tu.. hehe..

kalo rindu, mesti sy buka gmbr2 kita jln2 dulu..

sukaa..best..

sy akan simpan kngan tu suma..

..thanx utk berkat2 ko utk sy..

..thanx smlm blnja minum..

..thanx utk hati ko yg xpernah sejuk buat Tuhan..

..thanx utk teguran2 ko pd sy, sgt mbntu..

..thanx sllu ada kalo sy perlu somebody utk sharing..

..thanx utk setiap kata2 dorongan ko..

..thanx..thanx..thanx..

Thank u so much for all d blessings!!

tak lupa also Cain n Wilson..

hehe.. u guys bez lah!

hepi praying with u guys..

hepi chatting with u guys..

lain kali we go lepak again ah?? hehe..

Nah!! kalo ada nama yg gue termiss..gue meminta maaf yerr... hahahaha.. sy syg kmu semua..syg sgt2!! thank u.. trime kaseyh.. arigato.. grasias(ntah spell cmna xtau..haha).. kamsamida(pun ntah spelling :p).. kunsikou.. xie2.. nandrii.. salamat... syukriya.. syukran... atuukk..xtau bhsa apa lg..mcm xcukup rasanya mau thank kmurg bgni tp sy mmg bersyukur utk semua kmu... hehehe.. sgt2 grateful... terima kasih Tuhan utk semua peribadi ini.. bless them LORD!! amen~ yeaheheheh..

pnjang suda sy melalut..hahaha.. last words, selamat maju dan jaya utk exam kita xlama lg yea? Ciao eberibadi...LOL~!! (^_^)v

What happened?? I wanna be d old me..

Sy pun tak tau apa yg berlaku ngan sy ni..skejap mcm ni, kejap mcm tu..kdg rasa bodoh pun ada.. but i know sy mc berharga somehow (atleast to GOD, that is good enough more than anything else..), so sy selalu cuba nafi negative things like that dr cuba mpengaruhi.. but....susah ow!!! aaarrrgghhhhh...

What i know now..sy mahu jd sy yg dulu.. hepi2..xperlu worry apa2..organised.. tp i seem to lost those now..pegi mana 'mereka' semua..i need 'u guys'..come back... :'( i wanna be d old me!!

uhuhuh~ tp...fikir2 balik..mmg ada something yg perlu sy betulkan dlm hidup sy.. thing that going on now..it's not ok..it's not!! from few days ago, i've been praying for this..n the answered came to me yg sy perlu pulihkan 'perkara' tu dulu..baru sy akan dpt diri sy semula..yeap, i will do that..but i don't have the strength.. GOD why.... :'( i wanna be d old me...

kenapa sy perlu takut?? aduuhh..sy mmg pernah cuba bersuara..tp bila perkataan2 dlm minda sy tu cuba keluar, byk benda lain akan stop itu dr berlaku.. eeiiiissshh~!! tolonglah.. sampai bila?! Tuhan...I'm sorry God... I don't wanna live like this..sy mau mcm dulu.. really...i wanna be d old me..

I WANNA BE D OLD ME...! huhuhu~ pray for me..thanx...

Nothing much to say..huhu..

Oh..lama jg xupdate new progress of me kan..sbb mmg xda progress..how to update? haiyOoo.. ahahahah~ anyway..exam dah dekat.. huh~ bahang2 exam dah terasa pun.. sy pun dah pandai buat study week sendiri.. stay bilik jew xkluar2.. bengong... so, buat yg nak2 exam tu ::GuD LuCk ek kOrg!!:: hehe..kita berjuang sama yerr... yeah!

well for today..juz nak share some pic found in internet (credit to the real owner of the pics..^^..)

hehe..cute kan.. (^^)

ahaha..i dunno since when i'm interested to such things.. hehe..but it's cute.. ^^ i oso tried to do baru2 ni..tp besa2 ja lah... xcukup tools nak buat mcm kat atas tu.. bunga2 tu suma kalo xda brush yg sesuai, xleh buat..later sy akan cari! jagalah kamurg! hahahah~ ni lah kunun yg beta buat dgn kuku2 beta.. =)

yeah...begitu lah tu... lucu...hahahah.. xkisah lah.. janji rock! eh salah..janji hepi.. hahahah~

other story..urm nothing much.. baru2 ni tukar relationship status kat fesbuk jadi single..

hadOoii..lucu.. kalo bab2 mcm tu, byk ja org nak komen ek.. patut ar ada sesetgh org tu..(i x menuding jari kat sesaper ek..kalo agak2 terasa tu, minta maaf awal2 k..), asyik tukar relationship status dia.. kejap single, kejap in relationship, xlama pastu widowed.. hahahah saja nak dpt komen dr org sbb bosan2 layan fesbuk kan.. bosan2 pun nak jgk main.. yg kayanya c Mark Z tu jgk.. anyway, sy buat tu bukan suka2 ya.. xda maksud pun nak suh org komen itu ini.. but yeah..harus jg buat mcm tu.. ermm dah2.. jgn nak emo plak dekat2 exam ni ek.. bak kata my tutor (Dr Ahmad Zamri) baru2 ni.. "kalo nak clash, clash skrg..jgn esok nak perisa, hari ni baru nak clash.." ahahahaha~ tapi.....sepa kata aku clash?? aku xclash p0n... lalala~

heheheh..daaa everybody! jgn lupa study muddy..! LOL~ Blessings!!